Snap 1: A little life update.
Welcome back, you might have been wondering why I was gone for a long time, and why I came back now. Well, let’s just say I was running a little personal experiment to see what happens when I step away for a while.
Firstly, I can't find anything to write. Lately, I picked up a lot of new hobbies like web development, building my homelab, and other tech projects… While that is fun and all, I don't really have the necessary knowledge to write about them. Apart from those, though, I haven't changed anything about my life, and I fear that it's reached a point where it’s too “monotonous.” When my teacher asks me what I did with my day, I usually sit still thinking, “Oh crap, what did I do today?”, and I'm generally even more stunned when I try to say it in Chinese.
- Hey look, I coded something today!
- I read books.
- Well, I studied maths/English/French/Chinese or whatever.
- I wrote something again!
- I played video games all day, isn’t that exciting!
No, Efe, it’s really not. I’ve become numb to boredom to the point where I don’t even feel the urge to look at social media any more (not that I even use it these days). I also recently learned that:
- My nose is broken from the inside, and my voice sounds a little (this is an understatement, trust me) uncomfortable.
- I need to have surgery to get it fixed.
- I need to study maths (jokers) because I have an entrance exam.
- I also need to decide if I want to study for YKS (Turkey's university entrance exam, or 高考—if you’re Chinese, you’ll know what I mean.)
Still, aside from keeping me up at night, none of this gets rid of my boredom. “How much can someone really study, read, or think?” I don’t know if I want to be the one to find the limit.
So I’ve decided to start new hobbies! FUN! In reality, this is kind of a problem because I already have a lot of hobbies to begin with. Here comes another list:
Figure skating
I can’t skate right now because: I don’t have my skates, I don’t have my coach, and I don’t have a rink near me like I did in Ankara.Orienteering
That was fun while it lasted, but it’s not really a big thing in Azerbaijan. Even if I were to decide to reside in Istanbul, I don’t have the energy or the motivation to travel to other cities to run. I can do that in a gym.Software development
Although my focus has shifted toward frontend development lately, I’m still doing it. It's been my most long-lived hobby for like seven years now.Music
My guitar is in Baku, I’m in Istanbul, and I won’t be going to Baku for who knows how many weeks. Music production is boring when I can’t publish anything.Language learning
I’m still learning French and Chinese. My French is at a point where I can just listen to podcasts and stuff. My Chinese? Doesn’t feel like it’s improving. Every lesson with my teacher, thanks to our awful textbook, feels so monotonous now! Great!
I’ve tried going out with my friends and even made an effort to get a partner (iykyk), but that only lasted a few days. Right now, I’m facing this list of problems: (Yep, another list.)
I gained weight
I went from like 75 kg to 83 kg—not ashamed to say it. I don’t get why it’s such a big deal. Probably because I’m just a couch potato now.I am so bored
Don’t get me wrong, but I don’t see a reason to wake up early other than to start a marathon to try to get into my dream university in Turkey.My life became too electronics-focused
Should I go to a course? Naah, that also requires my tablet.
I want to implement these things:
Going to the gym
I’m not a bodybuilder, probably never going to be one—because I don’t want to be. But the gym is a great place to burn energy and get some exercise in.It’s really convenient because I literally have a cheap, really great gym near me for like 28 EUR/month. It’s a 5-minute walk away, why wouldn’t I?
Go outdoors
Okay, this one's mostly for show, lol. I don’t actually have anything to do outdoors. And where I live is far from the popular places in Istanbul.Join conferences!
This is the one I’m really excited for—cries in excitement—! I want to go to the next language conference and join some MUNs. Wait? What? Social gatherings? YES.
Other than those things, I am currently working on a new personal website that will probably replace my Bearblog. I’ll be posting the reasons behind that decision—ironically—on Bearblog.
Anyway, I’m sure your time is way more valuable than mine, so thanks for sharing it with me. See ya’ next time!